February

February is a short month. 

And extremely short for me. 

Too many pending tasks. New tasks. 

Ah, just like normal. 

Except the timing is shorter than the rest.

Well, nothing much I can do. Just hope for the best.

But I really hate myself when I accidentally sketching my to do list or remembering all my pending tasks when I'm home. Or before I sleep on Friday. 

Worst feeling/thinking ever. 

Because I said to myself; put a limit; a barrier or fine lines between work and personal/family & friends. 

And I failed. Miserably. Few times. 

Tough November

November treats me soo bad. The worst month for 2014. 

From day 1, everyday is a hard day for me. Not a single day i feel happy from morning to night. I feel scared to wake up every morning thinking what kind of email im getting. Or will I be stuck in traffic. It just feel soo hard. 

I felt demotivated to work. I feel scared to reply emails or to do any configurations as I scared I'm gonna screw up another thing. That I'm gonna fail again. Or I'm will make people lose their believe in me. 

Yes, to the extend that a simple email of "Thank You, Yana" make me smile. Or "You did a great job". Or "Thanks for your fast response". Simple words that makes me feel happy and motivated to do my work. 

Was in pantry making some tea and my officemate said "Smile liyana, I know its hard. You did good job but nobody care and when you make 1 mistake, everyone know and blame you and make it a big issue. I know you are struggling. You can do it." 

I was speechless to hear that. Never expect something like that from him. Terharu. 

Ingat, Allah takkan uji kalau tak kita mampu terima. I know. Ini ujian. Dugaan. To survive. To be more matured. To be more confident. I always keep this in my mind. As reminder; not to blame other people or the surrounding. 

I will try my best. I know I can. 

You can do this, Yana! 

No, dont worry. I still love my job. And my team. 

eye candy

Weird.

Just weird.

I don't even know your name (okay, I maybe know your name but not confirmed yet)
But what you did, is just Awwwww.

Thanks.
Thank you.

For making my day happy.
After all the bad things happen, that 5 minutes talking but need to stay for 1 hour meeting and taking-over-someone-job-together-with-their-mistakes.

Do it again; everyday perhaps?

And please,
Let me know your name. XD

one of the happiest day so far this month.

New place

New office! 

Tapi temporary jugak sbb lepas ni pindah to another wing. 

But still im liking the new place :)

sebab;

1) surau at the same level. So tak crowded, tak payah nak turun naik lif jalan pg surau. Harap timing pg surau tu bakal improve. 

2) coffee machine baru besar best. Bahagia save duit takyah beli coffee sedap. Sebab nespresso is the best! 

Walaupun meja tak besar seperti yg diharapkan but so far my place is one of the best workdesk. 

Harap tempat baru nanti best jugak. 

Amin.